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ive hurted people way too many times, without feeling any sympathy ive moved on with my life

ive ignore the realness in it because otherwise i would be trapped in my mind. 

even though i have been thinking about it more or 

less ive never realized how much i had hurt a persons feelings. 

right until this letter, message call it whatever.

i dont know how to react since i really dont know what i feel anymore.

now i only feel sympathy, and thinking about like you said - what could of happend.

there was a reason to why i out of nowhere just disappeared. and that reason was the truth.

the truth that i couldn't tell you. i always speak the truth eventho it hurts people BUT i dont tell the truth when i know its painfull to hear. 

i dont know what to say. i could say im sorry. but what do it help?

or.. i could say goodbye and just end it.

or get in touched again. 

NOW im trapped in my mind. i got what i didnt want in the first place.

thats why you always tell the truth, right?

i always knew it, but i couldnt be selfish even tho it really was.